Tuesday, December 18, 2007

experiencing depression

I know I'm currently immersed in depression. based on these symptoms of depression I know, I am now experiencing all the symptoms.

Feelings of helplessness & hopelessness

A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.

Loss of interest in dailly activities

No interest in or ability to enjoy former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex.

Appetite or weight changes

Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.

Sleep changes

Either insomnia or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).

Psychomotor agitation or retardation

Either feeling “keyed up” and restless or sluggish and physically slowed down.

Loss of energy

Feeling fatigued and physically drained. Even small tasks are exhausting or take longer.


Self-loathing

Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. Harsh criticism of perceived faults and mistakes.



Concentration problems

Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.

Irritability


Easily annoyed or frustrated. Lashing out in anger or snapping at others.

Aches and pains

New or worse physical symptoms, including headaches, backaches, diarrhea or constipation, abdominal pain, and aching joints.

People suffering from depression often show distorted thinking. Everything looks bleak to them, and they hold extremely negative views about themselves, their situation, and the future. Trapped in their pessimism, they obsess over their problems and blow them out of proportion. Unable to see a light at the end of the tunnel, they may even start to see suicide as their only way out.


HAHAHA!! yess I am so depressed and I really need help. maybe I should go to a psychologist or a counselor or maybe a psychiatrist since I've been diagnosed as "Borderline Personality Disorder". ohoho.. this is cool.. insanely cool. I need help and no one seems to help me now. I've screamed out loud how I need fukin help but still nobody are willing to help me. fuk the world today!!

maybe I should go to a salon and have my hair done, have my bod massaged and all. I need to spend my time and also my cash for the sake of RELAX. fuk it~!

symptoms source: helpguide.com